gayed girlfriend*

my girlfriend; k.d Rascal n i
23.11.05

the funny thing, im present yet not.
assuming that only my eyes can see? r u dumb or wat.
u see i spread plenty of connection.
and a lil hair jus ran pass?
dumb is not use on me. gladly on you.
well, months are given.
i guess somehow your screws loose.
fires are grown waiting to flare.
not on me but them.
i rem i warn, to shut up.
u see only you and you alone know.
now everyone seems to. thats a prob u create.
someones out to get, im waiting by a prepaid.
im still the same.
u see the best part in life.
is you nvr know how complicated people are.
so much lies, i wonder wat u r build on.
i admit it started. but its the beginning.
seriously wat ending were you tinking to recieve.
it wasnt plan, i jus tot of it.
how a maze could be created, ur foot jus went in?
no force, u send urself doooom.
i haven wrote the ending.

anw.
she says tt i see everything b4 she cld say anything.
haha, funny huh. 'turn ard' .. 'i saw le'
she thinks im freaky. asshole!
exams over. guys whrs the plan!
pubbing? tonning? sleeeping? mapling?? no wrking?
laughs, i cant wrk. argh.
im bored. watevr la.
wheres lane. zzz

i luv u dear kayne+

- ((kayneilane)

12:07 PM

my girlfriend; k.d Rascal n i
14.10.05

graduation day today.
we enjoyed.
pics taken, tears drop.
everyone will be miss.
tracy hold my hand with tears.
i smiled & said i'll meet you often. =)
i will miss you trac.
lets jus rem those durains.

5 years of frenship.my darlings my besties.we broke rules tgt.fights,suspension,nearly kickout of sch,caught with fags, play hide&seek ard sch.hiding frm everyone jus to sneak out.come school as and when.smacking teachers.throwing all sorts of anger.our cert all with bad remarks.fun we had. laughter we shared.
ive been thinking.where will we be 5 yrs dwn the road?will we still smile when we cross each other path.will conversation be the same?will we be the same?
only bunch who teachers pray to leave.rascals we are yet fun huh.thanks so much for the tolerance you guys have.i flare i slamn. you guys still smile.protective we are, we held each other close.like what they say of us.1 for all, all for 1.
i jus cant get enough of you guys.feeling so real when im with you all.we accept each other.all flaws at our fingertips.yet we jus give quiet stares when one flares.this will all jus be in our memories. nvr regretting meeting you four. =)
i love you, besties. =)

i cant believe im so upset. laughs!!
kayne+

- ((kayneilane)

11:25 AM

my girlfriend; k.d Rascal n i
3.10.05

its over.
that path.

i went down to sch during recess today.
i woke up at ten. goodness.
i slept at 7. thats when im suppose to be in sch.
i jus cant sleep. wonder wats wrong.
i only attend f&n. i din go history.
mdm yong. yeeeks. so i stay with aud at art.
now schs like a anytime or when u like it.
still, bad day.

my feets numb. tears dried.
lets jus get over and done with this.
i gotta pack my bag and walk on.
kayne+

- ((kayneilane)

7:28 AM

my girlfriend; k.d Rascal n i
2.10.05

nothing great bout corpse bribe?
expected much more, still his voice rocks.
im pretty f* up today.
why cant people just be original?
& the damn thing is wats life without sharing?
but dont do watevr i share with u always right?
and if i share with you, dont think im dumb.
im not blind either.
if you dont have wat it takes, then dont.
dont borrow and get the same things.
and save your fcuking reasons.
i dont buy them. brainless creatures.
crack ur brains, such a dumb excuse.

i still think besties are the best.
aud, im still angry thou.

i bought a fcuking guess shirt. so much trouble.
alter, forgot to remove the damn tag and last of all!
it tore.
mum's going down tml to get it change.
she's piss, laughs.

kayne+

- ((kayneilane)

11:22 AM

my girlfriend; k.d Rascal n i
4.9.05

great bday.
jus great, i enjoyed each celebration.
fri went with bj, ben and our gf to ktv.
oh yes, i suck at chinese.
poor baby had to read it out in my ears.
then had dinner with mama and auntss. at brazil churrascaria.
all meat. heee.
i recieve a ipod shuffle frm sis.
she said it was a usa choc. fcuk* laughs.
mama gave me a limited ed watch. haha.
thankz jie for e suprise!!!
rest was cash and cash.

sat, went to visit her to tell her its my bdae with mama.
then had lunch at mezza9. as usual.
ben came down to meet me. brought him to mama shop.
hey i introduce him to aunt as my bf.
so lucky of him. laughs!!!.
he bought me a&f teee. nice of him.
we went shopping. at paragon.
as if we r loaded with cash.
money worth or brand worth??
then i had dinner with besties, him and baby.
we went to ktv pub after that. woooohooo.
yes man! i enjoy ittt alot..
besties gave me money, they found nothing for me.
haha. wat the hell. but thankz girls. i enjoyeddd.

dear, i'm sorry for all those quarrels.
i should have tot of it. i jus nvr imagine you and my sis would suprise me.
thankz alot. =))

*** this is e 3rd yr u aint here on my bdae.
i went to see you, hoping you would jus ans.
i tot i could let go the pain. but i couldnt.
i still miss and love you.
somehow i still cannot accept everything.
ive been tearing, jus hoping i could see u agn.
the memories still here. i miss you so much.
i din wan her to take over your place.
maybe no one could. =)
know youre happy somewhere out there.***

kayne+

- ((kayneilane)

10:11 AM

my girlfriend; k.d Rascal n i
1.9.05

i dont understand some pple.
two says tt they have no money yet spending off shit.
one doesnt wanna appear, frens came first.
the other, everyting dunno.
i mean fcuk off la k. instead of enjoying im stressing.
some wanna make my life better but they keep ruining it.
im fcuking piss now.
pls all of those. jus dun come. i will be happier if i dun see ur face.
when it comes to yours. don expect anything.

enjoying...
somehow i dont recall i know you. let it stay that way.
some night creature thing. maybe its just spark.
not lust.. i felt something.

kayne+

- ((kayneilane)

10:41 AM

my girlfriend; k.d Rascal n i
25.8.05

this year really bullshit.
found out stuff i shouldnt, then move on to stress, then now i guess im alone.
i ate 3 biscuits today only. argh hungry. spell it for me.
maids gone for a weeek, eeeks.
yes, im upset. do not qn, fools?
screeeeeeeewwwww it, my bdae next weeeek.
see how lonely this gets. maybe im the only one who knows its next weeek. =)
kayne+

- ((kayneilane)

8:33 AM